there are so many things on my mind, sometimes it gets to the point where those thoughts whirling within me at the same time that i don't even have a slightest chance to express them through words. 

so i guess its time to sort out the bundle of threads one by one before its too late. i'll divide them into different posts because writing them in one post would only cause messy coherences. they are too much to take in at the same time anyways.