Gosh i thought i was healed. I really thought so. I thought i was progressing and was not stuck. But i guess i fooled myself.

This is so hard. No matter how hard i try to get up, this shit is already buried way deep down my unconcious self that its harder than i thought to get healed.  

I cant take this anymore — all aspects in my life are influenced. I stop being fully happy. I become more sensitive over unimportant things. I am stuck. And its not good.

I lately often found myself crying out of nothing, or just something so simple. I become so fragile, maybe because i've been hit so many times that the wall i've built up couldn't take it anymore and there is nothing left to protect me.