Maybe you've been stuck with the idea of you being so numb, that you didn't think you would ever cry anymore.
Until you did.
I feel like i have had enough, that i don't want to play games anymore. I surrender, dear life. Wouldn't that be enough to have some peace?
I didn't think there is such a thing like being numb and being sad at the same time, and yet there is. I let go all of the feelings i should have felt, and yet deep inside im still just an ordinary human with feeling i can't deny.
And this shit is tiring.