Maybe all this time you thought you have gotten through enough, that there was no way worse things could happen to you.

Maybe you've been stuck with the idea of you being so numb, that you didn't think you would ever cry anymore.

Until you did.

I feel like i have had enough, that i don't want to play games anymore. I surrender, dear life. Wouldn't that be enough to have some peace? 

I didn't think there is such a thing like being numb and being sad at the same time, and yet there is. I let go all of the feelings i should have felt, and yet deep inside im still just an ordinary human with feeling i can't deny. 

And this shit is tiring.