i am circling around the same circuit; disappointment. i have been sucked deeply, that i forgot to take care of myself.
i have changed, yes i have said that, and yes i have thought about it in a positive way. but there is some things that i lost throughout the progress.
i lost me. well, i mean, i have lost someone i have known for years as me. i have lost something, and i think its a soul.
i left it off somewhere, and i cant remember where it was to pick it up.
i miss me.
i cant write. posts became shorter. poems become dull. books become too boring to read. movies become the background sound of my daydream.
all i feel is tiredness. i feel tired of everything. i am fed up. i want to sleep because its the only thing that makes me at least calm and relax. life becomes too much to bear lately.
i miss poem. i miss writing. i miss reading. i miss watching. i just cant do it. i just cant do it.
where are you, dear me? i miss you.