the reason why Fix You by Coldplay is a life-long song is because its beyond true. if there is a word for "the realest truth of all truth", the song deserves it.
when you try your best but you dont succeed.
no, i definitely didn't push my limit until it blew up. but i did try hard, and when i say hard, it was far from what i had usually done. dont get me wrong; i had prepared myself for failures and uncertainties, but it seems like facing them always surprises me, over and over again. like it was my first time ever meeting them, and im telling you, it sucks. there is no such thing as getting used to failure. there is no such thing as getting used to falling to the cold hard surface, and falling hard.
its not going to be an easy road and i've known it my whole life, and yesterday i have said to God that i'll let Him do the rest for me. no matter how it ends, He is the one who knows whats best. but sometimes letting things go out of your hands are not easy, especially when you have put your whole heart into it.
this morning i realized i cant be like this for the rest of my life; one failure and im done. life is a roller coaster, and it turns you upside down within milliseconds. it will make you question things that aren't supposed to be asked, and it will punch you beyond what you could take. but after that, you will slowly recover anyways. you need to get up on your two feet. sometimes you need to just suck it up and take another second to enjoy the ride uphill. it will not be smooth; or else it wont be called life.